Saturday, June 15, 2013

Life is Fragile

Life has been busy, busy for the last few months.  I have been living the life of a single mom for the last 6 weeks, while Eric went back to Seattle to finish up school.  On top of that, I had the opportunity to pack up all of our stuff all over again (we just moved 6 months ago).  Last week we "celebrated" our 10 year anniversary, the same week Eric graduated from Dental School.  It is still kind of surreal.  It has been a long time coming.  As he stood on the stage, I got emotional thinking about the last four years.  All the hard work Eric has put in.  How our life has changed.  The many lessons that we have learned.  All of the great people we have been able to get to know, and especially how we have been reminded what is really important in life.  We packed our moving truck today and will leave on Monday to begin our trek down to sunny southern California.  We are excited to start this new adventure.
When we lived in Seattle, we shared a building (Primary & Young Men/Women) with a neighboring ward.  I found out a few weeks ago, that a young family had their nine-month-old son pass away.  I have been sick to my stomach thinking about them and remembering that feeling and hurt.  I hate imagining other's feeling that same loss and helplessness that we felt.  I was grateful to have been able to see this young mom, and hug her and talk to her.  I felt bad that I squeezed her so hard.  I just wanted to squeeze away some of her hurt.  My heart hurt, as I thought of the pain that she was experiencing and reflected on my pain of two and 1/2 years ago.  I'm so thankful for the comfort we were blessed with.
Today is the day where Brady has now outlived Andrew.  It gives me some anxiety but does help me to appreciate this boy and every whine, hug, and mess.  It gives me a good reason to reevaluate life and remember how much it can change overnight.  I can't get enough of our kids at this age.